Please like me, I am nice.

I guess you could say I’m a people pleaser. I don’t like confrontation. I’ll take the easy road. It’s always been important to me to feel liked. Should it be?

In her book Bossypants Tina Fey tells a story about Amy Poehler that I think about at least twice a week. Here it is:

idontcare

“Amy Poehler was new to SNL …she did something vulgar as a joke. I can’t remember what it was exactly, except it was dirty and loud and “unladylike”, Jimmy Fallon turned to her and in a faux-squeamish voice said, “Stop that! It’s not cute! I don’t like it.”
Amy dropped what she was doing, went black in the eyes for a second, and wheeled around on him.  “I don’t fucking care if you like it.”

I don’t fucking care if you like it. I repeat it to myself like a mantra.

Please like me

I guess you could say I’m a people pleaser. I don’t like confrontation. I’ll take the easy road.

How has that worked out for me? OK, I guess. Except for the simmering resentment, perpetually bubbling away, eventually released as crippling self-doubt and anxiety. Swell!

Kind Regards!

The work environment is where it most obviously manifests itself for me. I’d often say yes to being allocated extra work, then rage internally whilst other colleagues were never approached because they always kicked up a fuss. And, yes, I think my line managers appreciated me and were thankful of my efforts, but at the end of the day, it hasn’t really got me anywhere.

I’m also trying to coach myself out of a terrible email habit of signing off ‘many thanks’ when I hadn’t even asked anyone to do something. Or ‘apologising for the inconvenience’ for a situation not of my making. Basically falling over myself to ensure that my emails come across as polite and ‘nice’. I may as well have been signing off ‘I’m a nice person, please like me.’  It’s a slow process, but now I don’t always use ‘Dear’ before someone’s name, and I might send Regards instead of ‘Kind Regards.’ I know right, devil may care or what.

Ask for it

I’d also find myself fuming at the injustice of colleagues who had negotiated time off,  or payment for courses. I felt it wasn’t fair. Here was I doing everything that was asked of me and people still weren’t coming up to with me unsolicited offers of excellent career development opportunities and flexible working options. The difference between me and my colleagues was , of course, that they had ASKED FOR IT.

Nobody is thinking about you

In all of these examples, the lesson is basically that nobody is thinking about you as much as you are thinking about you. This seems an injustice I know, when you are so likeable and accommodating, but there it is. Despite my agonising over the tone of an email that would be read in seconds and forgotten about instantly:The recipient was almost certainly not thinking, ‘Well, Beth, sure is a nice person, I’m glad she took the time to be so polite in that brief and inconsequential email.’

In work, as in life, if you want something you really do need to ask for it. People, generally, won’t approach you with ideas for your development. If you want something , it has to come for you. (As it happens, of course I think good employers should approach you with ideas, but alas we live not in an ideal world.)

Rejecting Likeability

In a work situation, it’s not important that I’m liked, it’s important that I do my job to the best of my ability. I think I do this. Most of the time.

Of course, it’s more difficult on a more personal level, because then if someone doesn’t like you then it’s, well, personal.

How to accept that it’s OK if not everyone you meet likes you?

  1. Do you like everyone you meet? No, of course not. Do you spend a great deal of time and energy thinking about those people ? Probably not.

2. It’s out of your control. Maybe you have the same name as the girl they went to school with who bullied them relentlessly. What are you gonna do?

3. What is better for your happiness and self respect? Being liked, or being you? There’s no point being likeable, if it leads to resentment eating you from the inside out.

You are responsible for your own happiness. You can twist yourself into all kind of shapes trying to keep other people happy but ultimately you need to answer yourself.

So I ‘m trying really hard not to care so much about other people, and being liked, and being nice. I’m trying to listen to myself more and put myself first.

I don’t fucking care if you like it.

(Sorry for all the swearing.)

(Damn it!)

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10 comments

  1. Love this, because I can totally relate!

    Emailing to anyone, my default setting is to be nice whether I know your face or not. Only when I’ve had a few interactions and feel a bad vibe would I end being overly pleasant. I would bend over backwards not to be liked per say but to differentiate myself to the ‘others’.

    ‘Others’ being the crap filled world of people ,who demand what they want, when they want and how they want it. They only remember your existence and talk to you nicely when they want something out of you.

    So I am in the nice till you give me reason to be otherwise category, and I hope I stay that way 😅.

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  2. The Other Emma · · Reply

    It me! Am constantly told in work by colleagues that I am under appreciated by management and that I should go somewhere else that would pay better for the work I do and yet somehow I’m still in the same place basically hoping that they will one day notice every thing I do and pay me properly for it without me having to ask. Never going to happen but still I hope……

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  3. We were raised to please everyone and always say yes… it’s very hard to relearn the right to say no!

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  4. rosepenny · · Reply

    Cut out “no problem” while you’re at it. I takes the value of your time and effort away.
    Instead say give me an hour and I’ll have that done, back or whatever to them.
    Or I would love to help you. Or inset other phrase that still values you and your time. So they won’t expect you to do it again with, no problem.

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    1. Excellent advice – thanks I will do that

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  5. Hi 😍
    I’ve nominated and tagged you for the mystery blogger award. https://eirinisdiary.com/2017/05/07/mystery-blogger-award/ 😘😘

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  6. One advantage of getting older is that you (by that I mean I) don’t care much any more if someone clearly doesn’t like you. I usually don’t like the person either, so really it’s all good. I used to agonize endlessly over this but these days not so much: looking back, the people that I heard through the grapevine didn’t like me (it happened a few times) were always odious to me, so why was I upset? Luckily you get to a point where your main concern is just avoiding those people.
    This is why there are so many old grumpy f****rs around, they just don’t care any more whether anyone likes them.
    Cheery thought for the day!

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    1. It’s quite freeing when it’s obvious someone you don’t like doesn’t like you.

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  7. I love this. I’m a people pleaser and hate confrontation like yourself and care way too much about whether people like me or not! I try to remind myself that not everyone is going to like you and that’s ok.

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